Only You

For fifteen years and two months of life
I was hiding from your light
I was always running away
But I was so desperate to be saved
From myself and my tortured mind
and the mask I tried to hide behind
I was in constant search of love
But nothing was ever good enough

Ooo, you stepped into the room
Ooo, it was only you

You filled the empty spaces
with the light of your love
You peeled back the layers of my heart
and quietly sang away the dark

Ooo, you stepped into the room
Ooo, it was only you
Ooo, you stepped into my life
Ooo, you turned on the light

It was only,
It was only you
that saved me
It was only
It was only you
that set me free
It was only
It was only you

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What Remains

I don’t want my life to depend on this
Vulgar pleasantries, supposed happiness
Can’t I be content with just the two of us?

I don’t want my life to revolve around
what I continually lost, what I never found
I cannot be content with all the frills and the fuss

Because when I walk away
When the party lights fade
The emptiness remains
And I’m left wondering what’s real

All the shiny things hold my attention
while you wait starved for my affection
Can I not see your eyes contain all beauty?

Still I drive at night restless with my days
Allowing myself to suffocate in emotions haze
How long, oh Love, will you watch and wait for me?

Because when I walk away
When the world around me fades
The emptiness remains
And I’m left wondering what’s real
Because when I walk away
And the people always change
The desperation remains
And I’m left wondering what’s real

They tell me the pain will drive me closer to you
But if I do not show up at your welcome door
just what will you do?
Will you chase me down?
Will you chase me down?

Because when I walk away
When the prayers and worship fade
The questions remain
And I need you to be real
Because when I walk away
When the strength within me fades
The desperation remains
And I need you, still more

I’m Still 17

There’ve been moments on this journey
when I thought maybe
I saw something
on the horizon
But the moment comes
and the moment goes
and I’m back traveling the road
wondering if I’m even going anywhere

I  try to outrun the skin I’m in
I try to outthink my mind
But when I’m done
I’m back at square one
with the questions of this life
Would somebody
please tell me
something I ain’t heard before?
Something to make a bit of sense
of this mess of love and war…

I’m still 17
still caught in the fight
between everything that I’ve been told
and the harshness of this life
‘Cause after all of the singing and preaching
Hey, Jesus man, my heart is still bleeding, bleeding

A few times I’ve joined the cliché parade
when our paths did meet
I kept hoping to find
words so wise
that could give my soul some peace
But the rhymes went cold
the ride got old
and the bill of goods that I’d been sold
failed to offer comfort
when I needed it the most

So I hopped off the ride
and figured that I
could make it just as well on my own
And I’m still carrying this heavy load
down this lonely road
Would somebody
please tell me
something I ain’t heard before?
Something to make a bit of sense
of this mess of love and war…

I’m still 17
still caught in the fight
between everything that I’ve been told
and the harshness of this life
‘Cause after all of the singing and preaching
Hey, Jesus man, my heart is still bleeding, bleeding

I’ve been told to search and to study
to offer reasons for the hope within me
But when it seems that two plus two equals five
and the facts won’t line up in my mind
I’m told to simply accept it
It’s called walking by faith
You know where’s things you’ll never figure out
things you’ll never explain
But that ain’t good enough for me
Oh Lord,
you know,
I gotta question everything

I’m still 17
still caught in the fight
between everything that I’ve been told
and the harshness of this life
‘Cause after all of the begging and pleading
Hey, Jesus man, my heart is still bleeding, bleeding
After all of the praying and claiming
Hey, Jesus man, my heart is still breaking, breaking, breaking

I’m still 17
I’m still waiting for you to answer me